Always thinking

My mind is always churning… It’s not a lot of fun when you want to sleep. But yesterday had a lot of reasons to get the mind moving. First it was something Randy said as we were eating lunch together (which we don’t do often enough). He said that the worst thing that comes of this prosthetic experience for Jordan is that we tried and she doesn’t end up wearing a prosthetic. Which is exactly right. Worst case scenario: Our baby continues to be our baby. I don’t need a baby with two arms. I just want to offer her all the possible options in life and our therapists think this option is an important one at this point in her life.

So with those thoughts churning in my head, I found out our general manager’s daughter died in a car crash yesterday. She was 18 years old. I hate feeling helpless… I want to help the family, but I don’t know how. I want to hold onto my kids tighter and be thankful for the time I get to have them. The mind just churns on and on. At work, there’s a somber tone in the air. We’ve already discussed how we have no idea how to help… Food. Bring food. At least that’s something. But it seems so trivial.

I’m so thankful for what I have and hope I can offer something for this grieving family.