Family weekend

Jordan got to spend the weekend with her Grandma and Poppy… While I judged contest entries all day on Saturday. It was an honor to be a part of the judging process, but MAN did it take a long time. I missed a whole day with the family.

But here’s the moment every Mom wants. I came home while the family was eating dinner. I walk in and there’s Jordan waving her hand and little arm to say hi. She was SO happy and it made me smile. You know, the deep-down smile where you feel warm in your belly. Her bright little face. It was just a great moment.

She started chanting “no no no no no” this weekend. Yuck. The funny thing is most of the time she’s not really saying no to mean no. She’s just saying it because it’s a word. Hopefully it’s just a beginning for words that help her feel like she’s communicating… And won’t need to scream.

Another thought… I’ve noticed I’m obsessing on two-handed kids again. Maybe I’m really just obsessing on kids that can walk. I’m not sure. But it feels like I go through waves where I’m still dealing with a little sadness and jealousy towards other families. It’s silly though. Jordan doesn’t know any different… Her world is complete. Hell, my world is complete. But every once and a while, I just wish it was as simple as other families have it. Pulling up to stand isn’t even something you notice, because it’s so easy. Going out doesn’t require finding a jacket that fits over the prosthetic arm. I don’t want pity… I guess I just want it to be easier. In reality, things aren’t that difficult in our world. Jordan needs therapy, she isn’t walking, but she is growing, learning and so happy. I shouldn’t complain. I’m just a little jealous lately.